It's been awhile since my last post. We were struck with the gastroenteritis at this house. It hit hard and lasted through the holiday. I will spare you the details, but lack of sleep and some vomitting have kept me from giving you our usual updates.
I feel like since it's the last day of 2009 that I should be doing some sort of "Ode to 2009" post...but, I just don't have it in me. I think back on this year and it was a time for much celebration and a little heartache. Of course we celebrated the birth of Julianna, Drew's first sight of himself, and Lily's ever growing independence. Our hearts broke at the loss of our first family pet, Coco. And my heart ached as I struggled through much of this year battling the beast of postpartum depression. However, all in all, it was a year of good times and much growth.
What strikes me the most as this year 2009 comes to a close is how my life has changed over the past five years. Right now, five years ago, I was very pregnant with my first child. I was single and working two jobs, plus some. I lived with my parents and I was just trying to make it.
During that pregnancy I thought much about what sort of life the baby growing inside me would have. I often thought about the year 2010 being the year that she would start kindergarten. I had no idea how we would get to that point. . .she didn't have a name, I didn't have a place of my own, and I had no idea what was really in store for me as I sat on the cusp of becoming a mother.
Lily never knew that struggle. She may have felt it, unknowingly, as she prepared herself for her grand entrance. However, she has never known the mountain that I climbed to get us here...five years later and ready to start kindergarten.
I have had the unweavering support of my parents, siblings and extended family all of my life and because of that Lily will never really know the struggle our lives could have had.
I feel like since it's the last day of 2009 that I should be doing some sort of "Ode to 2009" post...but, I just don't have it in me. I think back on this year and it was a time for much celebration and a little heartache. Of course we celebrated the birth of Julianna, Drew's first sight of himself, and Lily's ever growing independence. Our hearts broke at the loss of our first family pet, Coco. And my heart ached as I struggled through much of this year battling the beast of postpartum depression. However, all in all, it was a year of good times and much growth.
What strikes me the most as this year 2009 comes to a close is how my life has changed over the past five years. Right now, five years ago, I was very pregnant with my first child. I was single and working two jobs, plus some. I lived with my parents and I was just trying to make it.
During that pregnancy I thought much about what sort of life the baby growing inside me would have. I often thought about the year 2010 being the year that she would start kindergarten. I had no idea how we would get to that point. . .she didn't have a name, I didn't have a place of my own, and I had no idea what was really in store for me as I sat on the cusp of becoming a mother.
Lily never knew that struggle. She may have felt it, unknowingly, as she prepared herself for her grand entrance. However, she has never known the mountain that I climbed to get us here...five years later and ready to start kindergarten.
I have had the unweavering support of my parents, siblings and extended family all of my life and because of that Lily will never really know the struggle our lives could have had.
I also cannot finish this post without mentioning Tom. His unselfish love and commitment to me and our family are a big reason why Lily will never know the struggle. Tom and I's love for each other and the commitment we share to our family is the reason Lily will grow up with the same unwearvering support and love that I have been blessed with all of my life.
So, as 2009 ends, and 2010 begins, I can only think amazing things are in store!
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