when it's time to change you've got to rearrange

We've moved. And I'm never moving again.

I had no idea that I had such an aversion to change until something actually changed. I had an unexplained stress response in the days leading up to the move and then I think I made myself nearly sick with anxiety over the whole thing.

So far things are slowly falling into place. We're just a few more hours of work from finally having the other house ready to put on the market. The new house is large and has lots of storage so it's been easy to just put stuff without a home somewhere out of sight until I can get to it one at a time.

The kids have transitioned beautifully to the new house. They love the space outside with the giant garage and driveway to play on. Drew spends hours (no, seriously) riding his bike around and around and around. Lily has a classmate from school that lives just across the street. I wasn't sure how that was going to go, but the one afternoon that we spent outside at home this week the girls ran back and forth between the houses and had a lovely time.

I think Drew and Julianna have a little anxiety about the space of the house. At first they had to be in the same room with me at all times. Now, they are okay to just be on the same level as me, or even just close by to be able to play without me. I love nap times in this house because I do not have to spent the whole time staying as quiet as possible and I don't have to harp on Lily to stay quiet. I have even done laundry while the kids sleep.

I would say, based on the amount of cleaning I've had to do at the old house...I am not a very good housekeeper. I'm thinking with my wages from babysitting next year I might splurge on my very own hired housekeeper. I'm hoping that with the help of a professional my house will not get to be so dirty. I'm guessing if I couldn't manage 1000 square feet, 2000 is going to be out of the question.

I do not miss our old house. I don't even feel a little bit emotional about leaving it. Maybe it's because we have spent so much time over there cleaning...or maybe it's because we outgrew it so long ago. Either way I'm relieved that we've moved. However, I do not feel like the new house is home yet...I am waiting and ready to feel settled. The change has not been easy...but definitely worth it.