thoughts on moving

I've been away from the blog for so long I have no idea where to start. The last two months have been the fewest blog posts that I've done in that time period anytime since I started to blog. I don't know how to explain the lack of blogging besides to say that the stress and anxiety of moving coupled with the Internet access on my phone...make it really hard to sit down and write about my days.

Generally my days involve cleaning, packing, working out and trying to maintain a healthy happy relationship with my husband and children. This proves to be about as much as I can handle. As excited as I am to move, I am equally anxious about the whole thing. There is no reason for this anxiety. I completely understand that moving is stressful and that things are going to be up in the air for awhile, but it doesn't make it any easier. 

When I think about this move I think about what it means for my kids. Even though Lily has lived here since she was 14 months old and Drew and Julianna both came home from the hospital to this house...they will have very few childhood memories from this house. I suppose Lily will remember things. And Drew will remember some key points...such as having a lure stuck in his head. But mostly, he won't remember. Our next house will  be the house that they will think of when remembering the house they grew up in (as long as Tom's job doesn't move us somewhere someday). The little blue house, just off Main street will be a very vague and distant memory.

For me, this house is where I finally became a grown up. It's the house that started out seeming so big and quickly became so small. Tom and I...mostly Tom....have really put a lot of blood, sweat and tears into this house. We really worked hard to make this little house a home. I think we succeeded. Our home now holds five years of memories...some happy, a few sad. It has been the place that we have learned, loved and become a family. In a house this small it is hard not to feel close to your family on all levels. And as I look forward to having a little more space and storage to spread out, I hope that our little family remains as close as we did when we lived in the little blue house with 1066 square feet.