brokenhearted

Julianna has decided that she's not a baby anymore. Yesterday at nap time she asked to sleep in a big bed so I moved her mattress to the floor to try it out. I'm happy to say that it went well. She napped just fine and came out of her room only when she woke up.

Today she asked me if we could do the crib mattress on the floor again. I decided to give her another try. I am definitely not ready to move her to a big bed yet, but it's okay to try it out once in awhile. So, we moved the bed to the floor and I tucked her in and left. I didn't even make it to the kitchen before I heard her leave her room. I found her in Drew's room looking through his toys. I picked her up and told her that that was not a good idea. I then took her in her room and put the crib mattress back in the crib. I told her that if she's a big girl then she has to stay in her bed for nap time.

Her reaction was heartbreaking. She just stood there without crying or talking. I could see her bottom lip quivering, but she never cried. I hugged her and kissed her and told her we would try the big girl bed again tomorrow. I laid her down in the crib and just kept telling her that she's was okay, she wasn't in trouble and that I loved her. She never responded. She still is quiet in her bed. Wow. I would almost rather she have a temper tantrum because this devastated reaction is terrible! I feel so bad for her! I am sure she's fine and has already recovered from this incident, but I feel so bad for breaking the poor girl's heart.

This is not the first time I have made her sad, nor will it be the last. But that girl really knows how to pull on her mother's heart strings! When she figures that out we're all going to be in trouble!